The older I get the more I realise I can’t do. This is just normal stuff that other can do regardless of whether the older or younger like winter sports, driving, getting a job. You never realise how much society shapes and influences you until you retire, you go on holiday, you move or something that removes you from normality. I have never been a normal person even before I was diagnosed with aspergers syndrome at 17. I have never fit in with my peer group. I have always been others that were either much older due to there ability to respect my differences or much younger as they don’t really care. I am the ultimate square peg in a round hole and trying to conform has damaged an already damaged person.